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I am up again at 3 pm this morning, cant sleep, pain everywhere. I have come down my dog Fernie greets me she always makes me feel better.
I make a cup of tea and retreat to my work room so I do not disturb anyone in the house.
I check my mail and my shops and start to do my treasuries, and look for new ideas and new shops. I get absorbed in this for a few hours. I feel that at least I have achieved something in the small hours with the dark shadows everywhere and my Fernie by my side, she loves company.
She is so peaceful now sitting on my side, the pains are getting worse today they are in the chest so every movement hurts but I wont let it overtake me, I write or create a little more and my mind takes over and dismisses it for a short while.
I start to plan out my day, small things I want to achieve, my main events of the day must be done first so that I can achieve them.
If I feel bad today or worse later I have already planned jobs where I can sit down and knit, crochet, sew, finish work ready for selling or giving away. I can take pictures to make them ready for my shops, so there is always a lot to do and if I sleep a little I shall awake knowing I achieved something today if only a small task.
I have had a couple of goods days lately, but today is beginning one of my down periods when I cannot do much, I get exhausted quickly, I have family worries which also bring me down. I think too much when the pains come so suddenly extreme, they seem to take over my body and do what they want, the more the pain, the more the worry, the more the pain, it is a cycle hard to get out of. I shall be trying….. I have my hobby and my sanity which helps, I shall start by making something again and sorting out (well as much as my body will allow me to move) but the sitting and making I can do, I section out my life now when I am better I get about as much as I can and do ordinary things, but when the pains attack severely I try to make things and make sure I accomplish something. My hands are hurting now so I shall stop typing and have a rest, see you all soon nannycheryl